A Descent Into Lament
April 1st, 2001
A fool is born
A man’s undone through a reckless plight
All has been taken and all has been wasted
A wrong for every right
Withered and callous
Cold and helpless
A wretched mistake
We fueled it all
We made it last
The emotional walls to blot the past for us
Yeah
A cause for a hate
A cause for a lie
When did it end?
When did it start?
Was it always there?
Thoughts that mold thee
Words that shape thee
Reflections on a tattered life
Suppressing it all
Suppressing too deep the remnants of
How long to fight
How long to see
A bitter heart has been paving its way for me
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Oh, wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
A Lesson In Silence
Alone, I sit
Alone, I wait
Alone, a lesson in silence
Calcified through loneliness
It bruises the soul inside me
I need you more than anything, with everything wasted
Like words on a page, they won’t feel the gravity of silence
Keep me up
Keep me thin
Winnowing the choices
A little more
A little less
A little bit caught in madness
Boiling
Losing steam
Sifting the thoughts that lay here
I need you more than anything, with everything wasted
Like words on a page, they won’t feel the gravity of silence
When you turn to find that what you hold in place, erased
Get on to stop and celebrate the things you hold, embrace
With tired eyes and lovers lips, you kiss the sky and hold your head up
Higher with belief
In all the times, in all the places, given up and fall to pieces
All to be with you
Breakdown?
Right
Huh?
Hey!
Endurance
Senses distorted
Circled around and faced to the wind
Feeling misplaced it brings sorrow then pain to them
Drifting apart they’re holding it in
They are
They are
Take the thoughts that breathe
The thoughts that gave you restless nights
Robbed of all the love, of all the things that gave you life
Near, not far
A world in motion
Where time can amend
A place where we could be friends
Memories recorded
Gathered around these culpable sins
Over and over they lean forward then back again
Reeling inside they’re taking it in
They are
They are
Given all your love
Given all your strength to get them by
Given all your time
Given all your spirit and your might
Given all your love (Bonds keep forming)
Given all your strength to get them by (Then breaking apart)
Given all your time (Borrowed notions)
Given all your spirit and your might (That led you too far)
Held by a thread
A pinprick forming a hole in the skin
A discomforting
To press on
To press on and on
I’d like to say
I’d like to say
I’d like to say it
What hinders me to make me seek a way around it?
I’d like to say (You know where you’ve gone)
I’d like to say
I’d like to say it
What hinders me to make me seek a way around it? (You know where you belong)
Holding back you know you feel it!
Holding back you know you feel it!
Holding back you know you feel it!
Exploited
Heroes fill the void of these sedentary minds
A twist of the tongue
A touch on the fate of these ordinary lives
Hollow and solitary expressions that are made
A shallow entreat
A shallow attempt to belong in another’s life
In the sky the sun is set
We’re losing the essence of our lives and of our days
When the sun has set
When the rains have come to reveal the course of our ways
Don’t spite them
Embrace them and love them and see
Sorrows
Wounded souls
Those aching in need
Get your steps right
Get your motives straight
Get your balance into place
With a careless thought and a careless word all sincerity is laid waste
Don’t spite them
Embrace them and love them and see
All these burdened souls
Those aching for peace
Lovely yet withering
True beauty gone displaced
Fraught with the tears
Fraught with the pain of a narcissist at play
Bruises
Paralysis from swindlers on parade
Counterfeit alms through counterfeit names
The innocent laid waste
In the sky the moon is lit
Whatever
Whatever it forms
Wherever it takes shape
Can’t feel this heart
Can’t feel these thoughts
These emotions draw the same
Don’t spite them
Embrace them and love them and see
All these burdened souls
Those crying for peace
Fade Into Light
At the closing
Into the twilight
Into this darkened night
Over the distant, broad horizon
There they set their mind
If not for a reason
If not for a purpose
To ease this broken life
All the forces and all the stresses crushed the soul inside
Strike on the heels of arrogance
Strike on the heels of ignorance
Carried on and made to sing
Wisdom called to help them live again
Daybreak, where I found myself in Your arms
Where darkness fades into light
Reaching out to receive the gift of Your love
Full expressions of Your goodness to me
All that I have become
All that I have that still remains
Sunlight, shines bright on the seal of Your love
Paving a way every time
Love that tore, tore a hole in the space of these rights
Running backwards all of this time with You
Always alive in me
Always One to forgive
Up on the hilltop
Is where I waited
To meet there alone with You
Looking upward
Beneath the sunlight
A new direction was born!
From You
Born from You!
From You
Born from You!
Going To Zero
Hold on we’re going to zero
How long till we meet here?
Gathered and repositioned
Crawl out from the landslide above you
It’s like them to forget
Then come back to reason
To think straight
To be wise
Then hold on to every mistake!
Every mistake!
Every mistake!
How long?
How long?
Yeah
How long?
How long until we meet?
Fouled up and rushing to be here
Fallout descending upon you
Headlong into regression
Pulling strings like you’re going to be here
It’s like them to forget
Then come back to reason
To think straight
To be wise
Then hold on to every mistake!
Every mistake!
Every mistake!
Every mistake!
Every mistake!
How long?
How long?
Yeah
How long?
How long until we meet?
Hope
Here and now
Here and now, not yet
The place we’re in
Sailing on
Sailing on from here to better shores
Wait for it
Light in the Kingdom of Love
With newness of life
A passage created for us
Love stirring up this faith
You hold all things in place
Strength and assurance to lead us on
Ode to life
To a life to come and come to last
Sending all
Sending all Your love and peace to us
Wait for it
Light in the Kingdom of Love
With newness of life
A passage created for us
Love stirring up this faith
You hold all things in place
Strength and assurance You give
Draw me in
Call me faithfully Yours
Sustain me inside
Help me build this life upon You
Day or night
Steady is Your voice
Guiding this life
Healing and forgiving
Love covers all
Mirrors
In the moonlight they lose sleep
Humming gentle melodies
Drifting slowly into deep thoughts
Then memories
Then dreams
Light cast through the doorway forming a dim light through the hall
Whispers crowd the shadows and to the walls they fix their eyes
Through the doorway a room seen lit
A candle burns near a book that rests at a table for two this night
The book is opened
The pages are read
As a mirror upon the reader it has
To see themselves as they really are
To behold The King and perceive His scars
All of us have left what all of us have done
Judgement standing near when all of us are gone
Where you found your life
Where you placed your love
Was it tripping there, where you ran your tongue?
Hollow was in life
Hollow was in death
All that had enticed now consumed the flesh
Redemption speaks word
Tugging at the heart
A love draws kindly near to set you apart
Breath along the highway passing breath rising to its home
Scarcely it concerned those, though it struck the midnight hour
What factions mislead?
What factions divide?
Painting colors all gray that dishonor this life
With weighty decisions it fills up the heart
Revealing deceit that was there at the start
With ascetic tones a voice cries out
To defend the poor, as the helpless shout
Orphan and widow
The weak and lame
Bear witness to all who ignore their estate
Polar
They rose up to seek a place to survey it from
At this vantage they could see their dreams had died
As cold as an icebox
An unending circus
Where anxious holds restless
Where time sets its curfew
Left alone
In a place where no one dared to come inside
A long way from here
From here
Endowed with a plan
A good way to follow suit to shield their pride
A life that’s running dry
Running dry
This lost way cannot survive, but they try
A drowning mess
In a vacant place they run
Running closer to no one
Come near my son
Sinking!
I’ve got to climb out!
Got to climb out!
Pulling me in it won’t spit me out!
Can’t brace myself!
It’s pinning me down!
Take heed you’re loved
Please!
I have got to get out!
I have to get out!
I need to get out!
Window into their mind
Many burdens took hold of their life
At arms length will they get by?
Your love holds them for all time
A sign of the cross to rest over the weak
A sign of the cross to rest over the weak
Silhouette
A long way into the depths of this mind
I saw you hiding in fear of this life
And you were the same as I remember you
And you were the same as I remembered you
Silhouette
A long way into the reaches of your brain
A coward stood downcast and wasting away
And you were the same as I remember you
And you were the same as I remembered you
Silhouette
Strong
It’s in the past
So we won’t breathe a word
From every moment that came and brought its worst
And You were there to lead
Lead us through the pain
When we were broken and confused
You breathed life in us
And You were good to us
You had set us free from ourselves
If only love would grow stronger and seal this heart and tongue
With opened eyes and opened hands
When the pressures of life grow dense
When nothing at all makes sense
You make us strong
Surf and Synthesis
(This song is an instrumental)
The Broken
With a familiar voice, in a quiet place
Sing to this heart, be its source of strength
This inclination, this failed condition we’re in
So hard of hearing, so prone to losing sleep
It’s plain enough, yet difficult to see
This heart is drifting, this body’s losing sleep
We’re losing touch, to see, beyond these things
Into the hearts of the broken ones
A contrite heart, He will not despise
To the broken-hearted, He heals and binds up their wounds
Soul filled with music, blood flowing through these veins
Lend us Your heart, lend us Your thoughts, Your ways
This soul is thirsty, this heart is aching for peace
Faintest illusions, distracting thoughts that feed
Into this mind, consuming all that’s sane
Called to attention, freedom from all this blight
Strengthen this mind, this heart, lift up these eyes
Into the hearts of the broken ones
A contrite heart, He will not despise
To the broken-hearted, He heals and binds up their wounds
Stone cold for nothing, loveless in subtle ways
It’s hard enough, it’s sad enough to feign
Seeking redemption, a heart of flesh that beats real
Your love is perfect, Your name is Truth, the True Vine
King of Saints, Mediator, the Life
A pled request of, a heart that shines forth Your light
Abundantly, with love, please fill this life
Into the hearts of the broken ones
A contrite heart, He will not despise
To the broken-hearted, He heals and binds up their wounds
Into the hearts of the broken ones
A contrite heart, He will not despise
To the broken-hearted, He heals and binds up their wounds
Into the hearts of the broken ones
A contrite heart, He will not despise
To the broken-hearted, He heals and binds up their wounds
Too Far
Now, you try
To bring this selfish heart to rest
For good
A moment of silence
A moment too callous
All signs are blinking red for you
To stop bringing them down
There’s no way to justify
This consternation draws heavy eyes
If love and kindness could form to rain
Pouring itself into this heart of clay
Then so it be
Please let it be
The quench of a thirst for a holy life relieved
Now, you’ve come
To bring this selfish heart to rest
For good
Turning
Here we are, how did it come to this?
Upending ourselves, we find our lives at risk
We can’t find a pathway back from here
Loss of love, we find our estate won’t last
All night and all the day, fortunes are sold and fortunes are slaved away
Spinning these hands, this toil once self-made
Brokered a cause to shatter simple, peaceful minded life
Mercy runs deep that cleanses this life
Fear won’t live inside this light
Mercy runs deep that cleanses this life (Given all your natural instincts haunt you, come and see)
Fear won’t live inside this light (Sense the love and voice who shaped and formed you)
In Your shelter there is hope and there is peace
Standing there with full attention, Your harboring is safe
Learn to rest, learn to rest these thoughts upon You
I give myself, to You, my Savior
Unwinding Time
Stepping back from the edge
Part of you imploded and insisted to run
Ripped away at the seam
Habit forming thoughts induced your instinct to flee
Facing the cards you fold from your hand
They haunt you and grieve you
They’re costing you dear!
The way they inform, affecting your move
To cause you to step back
Pretend
Step in
Defend you are fine
A life that is unwinding the time
No place for this state of mind
No, no!
Can’t feel this way any longer
Your tongue is tied
A canvas lay empty bleached in white
One last moment
To sense the pain
To feel the pain
One more second
To hear the pain
To know the pain
Facing the cards that stay in your hand
Your truth in the moment
Now you’re soldiering on!
To find a way to awaken the mind
The spirit with the body throw in
Last fight, the win
Bread of Life came humbly and patiently to your side
Called to the suffering of this time
Where are all of the gestures that were craved?
Laud for an endless refrain?
Where the curses of heartache meet their end
Where faith breaks the wheelhouse sourced to the sin